Dear Al,
Tonight I think of you again. I am very grateful that on your last breath of life you thought of me and made your soul presence known around me by touching my hair and calling my name. I knew it was your voice so I whispered your name back thinking you were there beside me while I was having a nap. But it was your silhouette on the wall in your uniform not knowing it was your soul then visiting me. I wished I had a camera then to capture that last moment even if it was only your spirit.
I am very grateful for that last visit because we met in my school for the first time and you said your goodbyes for the last time in my school again. That night you showed up again but you were up there on the sky smiling up at me waving till I saw you no more.
This is the only way I can tell you how much I cared and loved you through all those 41 years past. You will always be in my thoughts, in my heart and for every passing day that counts. I really missed you so much that I can't cry any more even if I wanted to. I am always praying for your soul especially on All Souls Day and when a big butterfly flew on my doorstep I let it in and prayed for forgiveness until that butterfly died in my home and that was then that I felt again the loneliness and sadness creeping deep within my bones. Now I knew it was you in that form of a big monarch butterfly years ago.
Al, we will be together next time when the time comes for me to disappear and be sure to welcome me for it is you I only wanted to be with.
Love you always and forever,
Lena
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